Tie o’ the Day #1. As per usual, a Stacy Adams. Swell Easter colors. Tasso Elba button-down completes the Easter-ness, despite the fact that Rowan gave me this shirt for Christmas. He knows my style well.
Anyhoo…I’ve been experiencing what I call my “severed head” or “crazy head” for the past couple of months. Who knows exactly what starts its trajectory. But I know enough about where my bipolarity has me right now to know that despite some big changes/decisions I’m making right now in my life, what my head is going through is not situational. The various life-changes (I detest that term) are certainly variables in the life of my head. But these changes are not the cause of the inner turmoil.
And I understand my bipolarity enough to know how to deal with it. I have a host of coping mechanisms. I know what is and is not a good idea to try to accomplish in each of the stations of the cross of my mental state at any given time. The inside of my head is best described as a pendulum, and a thing I’ve learned about being bipolar is that wherever the pendulum moves–and how fast or slow it moves–it will ALWAYS move. It will always swing back to the other side. And it will always wear a bald trail along the path it plods. Sometimes it even stops for a while at the bottom of the arc it travels. The trick is to be patient enough to move through the tumult until the pendulum swings to a more habitable place.